Being Invisible and Such.

So I have finally started back into my last year at University.
It is scary to think about how fast time has flown.
It is also scary to think about how much I have grown and changed.
And I don't mean scary in a terrifying sense, but scary in an amazed sense.
I mean, wow! Could I really have achieved so much in 3 years?
I have now officially been out of secondary school for 3 years, this being my 4th year. Each year has taken me further and made me grow so much. I am so excited about the plans God has for my life.

So anyway, yesterday, as I spent a very long and boring 5 hour session in the library, I found a book (as you do) as I was randomly browsing.
The book is entitled "The Invisible Woman" by Nicole Johnson, and it is nothing short of amazing, true and relevant.
In the book (which I completed... it's only short), the author talked about feeling invisible in her own life and losing her sense of belonging in her family and community. This is something I could really relate to, as I'm sure many people also could. I mean, have you ever felt that, no matter what you do, or what you say, no one will notice you? Have you ever felt as though people ignore you on purpose or as though you don't matter?
Well that's what this woman was on about. She even took it so far as to say she was invisible to Connie, the mixed Beagle.

In the book, the woman gives her testimony about how God made her realise, that even though she may feel invisible, God sees.
She goes on to quote that "Invisibility is not inflicted upon me; it is a gift to help me truly serve."
Which got me thinking how true this is!
Invisibility should never be considered a curse, but more, a blessing. When we are invisible, it is so much easier to focus on God, and faith is more honest. We're not doing things for others to see, instead, we are doing them for God. When we are invisible, everything we do is for God, and we are able to serve him fully and honestly.

She also quoted that "it is possible that the opposite of love is not hate, or even apathy, but showy self-serving acts." This really struck a chord with me, because it is so blatantly obvious.
For a few years now, my favourite quote had always been "The opposite of love, is not hate, but indifference." However, I see more clearly that, yes, the opposite of love is indeed showy self serving acts- because love is supposed to be selfless, and anything other than this is just plain selfishness.

So yeah! That's my tangled web of ideas from the book, which i still haven't managed to completely sort out. However, let me finish this blog with a chorus from a beautiful old hymn.

I sing because I'm happy

I sing because I'm free

His eye is on the sparrow

and I know he watches me

So even though, sometimes, i may feel insignificant and that the work I'm doing has no relevance, I just need to remember that in everything I do, I am doing in for the Glory of God.